Love Again

Sam Salter-Love Again

Chorus
I just wanna love again
I'm sick and tired of tryin to pretend
That I don't need love again
Cuz it hurts too much without love
I just wanna feel again
What it feels like to be in love
So I'm gonna let u in
And take another chance on love
On love… o-o-o-on love
And take another chance on love

 its such a nice song…I always hear this on wave….the last time this song hit me this much was somewhat 5 years ago, in second year pre-med…..that was when I was so scared to fall….deep….but everytime i hear this song then, it makes me feel how great it is to just allow yourself to fall freely….despite of being so unassured….

and after that episode there was this certain period when hearing this would just hurt me to the highest level….because the decision wasn't right….and I just regret why "I took the chance"

and now after a long while….i never thought the familiar pain upon hearing this song would come back….I always take my chances….I always allow myself to go for whatever my heart desires, that's why now, Im back in that same old street I was in for so long….

I was so amazed because I thought I met the right person, at the right place and in the right time….I thought maybe God has sent him for me to realize that Im not bound to be alone forever after all….

Still he isnt…

I believe he likes someone else…..and where would it lead me?

Back to questioning myself…..why I took the chance once more… 

i should be studying but….

allow me to reiterate the week that I was lured away from medicine life….
I am guilty of not being able to study, read and prepare for class…
I feel so irresponsible and all…
but I had to do it.

for the Lord's day…which was held yesterday

We had to rehearse almost every day since Saturday,
and our performance was not that okay…we actually had so much errors that I wanted to sink right there and then…I thought, I was to blame for those…
coz I was the director/scriptwriter/choreo/musical director/dancer/singer etcetera
and we failed to present well…
but even if it ended up that way
the week I had….was one well worth remembering

I found new friends….Angie, Jhoane, Robert, Christian, Ian,….ate shirley…and the list goes on…

also…

Funny how one person can come and touch your life even if you just had a few days….moments to share…
Funny how I felt so much for that one person in the span of a week….how it all grew that fast…
Funny how sentigurl…can fall for someone, in a snap….but couldn't forget in a million years..
I just had a week with him….but it seems Ive known him for so long….
I know this would just be the same old story….ending up with me being alone in that street I have been in for 22 years now, but still I thank him for the moments…my heart still beats fast when I think of those….and I couldnt do much about it since this is really how a sentigurl's heart works…..
Its sad that I fell asleep and wasnt able to spend the last hours I could have with you….
So I woke up with an aching and regretful heart….
Still I will always remember our dance
and the you Ive learned to love…..

now…im going back to reality….
read harrison's!!!!!!

End of May Reflections + Life in Medicine

tic tac tic tac…..

vacation is close to its end….

and what did i accomplish so far?

the only trip i had this summer was to galera…weekly in mall of asia and alabang town center….

i suddenly turned into a mall rat….

but most of all….i transformed into an owl,  my day starts at 11:00/12:00 pm and ends at most at 5:00 am…its as if I suddenly I became a CSR working on a graveyard shift…what i did with almost 3/4 of my vacation?  surf….surf….and surf…the net…

at the start of this super long break i was determined to read harrison's….so ill be all geared up for the battle that begins on the 2nd week of june…but then laziness sets in….haha….

but i wouldn't say that nothing happened to me for 2 months…cause in reality, this was one of the most fruitful i ever had…

i grew….how i wish taller…haha..no… im still the same tiny, pequeno girl…but… GOD has always been faithful to His promises to me…. not only did the weekly trips to Baclaran, the candle-intentions for myself and for others help stabilize my spirituality…but He has been working within me eversince I started the Christian Life Program of CFC-Singles For Christ….travelling back and forth from laguna to ust and back every thursday was well worth it…

No i did not turn into a saint…there are a lot of things I have to work on….relationships….attitude…and stuff….my mind  still turns upside down when trouble comes….but what this summer gifted me…is strength…and wisdom to rise above it all….all these, through the wonderful thursdays….

i hope i could cling on to this even when school starts….and that hazardous life in medicine resumes….

so…

i was really planning to post something intelligent, something worth reading…but i still ended up writing my emos…haha….sentigurl will always be sentigurl…still…i am in the mood to share my thoughts on the life I've chosen….

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Medicine Life

Whoever said medicine is hard must be out of his mind…..cause it is not just hard…its painfully, excruciatingly bone crushingly blood draining difficult.

We often joke about med students being living-martyrs….but its true.
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