dealing with it
July 14, 2007i have a hard time dealing with it…maybe i was born with scarce endorphins and low tolerance…..
i feel so much….every single thing affects me to the fullest
Even if it's supposed to be an emotional pain, I feel it physically….it mimics myocardial infarction pain….or maybe as worst as a dissecting aneursym….and I dont know how to take it…
I really dont know why I grew up this way….
maybe his loss truly made me a weak individual….my dad's loss.. that somebody's loss…..
my heart is just so dried up right now….
I miss him…and I have to let him go….
because going on with this longing feeling is tantamount to more disastrous consequences later on…
haiii why did you allow me to know him, and feel the pain again oh Lord…:'(
48 hours without good sleep does this to me…
plus 2 weeks of not seeing nor communicating with that someone I just met, but left me with all the memories so hard to forget…
…..feet cemented on this street……..its excruciatingly painful to be back here…….
