Revalida 2009

i miss this blog….

in the past, this was not just a simple journal  online…this was my confidante….the sole thing who will never refuse hearing what i have to say….its sad that i wasnt able to update this for almost half a year….and a lot…real lot things happened during those months i ignored this…

I PASSED THE REVALIDA

this was my greatest achievement so far….for months I dreaded the coming of that one day that i will be grilled, sauteed, pulverized….i shedded buckets of tears….i had sleepless nights….even in my dreams, i never escaped from this truth, that ill be taking the orals, and i have to be prepared….but being in MEdicine rotation…the most demanding rotation in clerkship….it was more than hard for me to concentrate revieving for March 3….I cursed people who didnt care………………..I went through the preparation almost alone…..(thankful for irene and christian for being with me on some review nights)……

ON my revalida day, the 1st day of revalida 2009,I had 2 luggages full of books….carried by Christian….we entered  USTH….with all the anxieties and apprehensions within me…..went to chapel….and He knelt down and prayed with me….there I felt it was not only me who was scared….

Shayne and I were the 1st among all the clerks to face our tribunals.at the patho conforence room…….in my heart, i know I am not prepared….I cannot remember the emergecies I read for days….tabula rasa…..clinicals….im dead….  Still i am thankful because God allowed me to pass the written revalida…..thus, exemptin me from the basics part of my revalida…..

I know i was part of His plan….so that…on that day of March3….I had Chole for my clinicals….*shudder* Venous thromboembolism for emergencies…

 I cried after my orals….because i know I didnot please my tribe…i failed to meet their expectations….and so I cried a lot and was comforted by my previous patho professors….boosting my morale….that I would not fail….

 and then  when Shayne and I were called back for the judgment….

…we both passed…despite of the many things they said…i dont care anymore….

minutes after the deliberation… I called my mom and we both cried….thanked the Lord for this sblessing

revalida is but a bittersweet success

depression to the highest level

4 more days before graduation day…..

i never imagined that id still be on the same boat even if i already have the much coveted md…..ive been through a lot….still going through some more….