wallowing in sadness
June 6, 2009why do i fail to post here…when this is the only place where nobody can criticize me for what I say….where I can say anything I want without fear of being rejected…
i missed this blog…i miss the times when I write here everytime I need to spill things out…
one month of OB internship at East ave has passed…its a lot of hardwork….duty days are sooo toxic…..not to mkention the nurses and even the nurse aids who doesnt treat you right
Intern me: Ma’am nandito daw po ba sa ward si Remandaban?
NUrse 1: —– (wala akong naririnig)
Internme: Ma’am si Remandaban po…
Nurse 1: —-(deadma lang ako tuloy sa pagchacharting)
Internme: Ma’am….si Remandaban nandito sa ward (a litter higher octave level)
NUrse 2: Hay nako doctora, lagi ka talagang lost. walang Remandaban dito
ai sorry ha pinapatanong lang kasi sakin yun ng residente namin…Doctora. este Ma’am pala. bawal magtanong…tsk
yea…the nurses there seem to have perforated tympanic membranes…they love to ignore you at all times…PLUS a number of them are obnoxious.
and if its not enough some aides are…such pains in the ass
Internme: Ma’am pwede p pasingit sa chart nito (labs) thnaks po
Nurse aide: ai doctora kayo ang magsisingit nyan
Nurse supervisor : ai doctora trabaho nyo yan kayo ang gumawa…di kami utusan
Intern me: e ma’am ako na po ang kumuha nyan sa baba diba kayo po talaga ang kumukuha nun
Nurse aide: eh ma’am sya na daw po ang kumuha
NUrse supervisor: ai doctora trabaho nyo yan wag nyo ipasa samin
and the nurse aide rolls her eyes….shet irapan daw ba ako….tsk buhay
one midwife pushes a patient’s wheelchair not even minding me…talgang babanggain nako ng bonggangbongga
mga adik mga tao dito sa eamc…:(
being a PGI, you wil never earn their respect, to them you are just the intern na wala pang licensya…kung minsan parang sarcastic pa sa pandinig mo ang pagtawag nila syo ng doctora…
and if its not the worse….one patient…”pay” patient almost made me quit DOH internship…..I was monitoring her Fetal heart tones q1,( hourly) noticing that she is irritable everytime she has topull up herhospital gown for me to hear her baby’s heart….irita na because she has to wake up all the time..even if I was told by the consultant na wag na sya gisingin, i couldnt coz she wraps her body with a blanket and sleeps on her left….. i mean, I had no choice but to dsiturb her sleep… and she was practically sleeping the whole day… at 3am…an hour after she wentto the Dr for her BID Non-stress test (Electronic fetal monitoring ) I went inside her room to monitor her
internme: ma’a,m pakinggan ko lang po ang baby nyo
patient: hawak sa ulo, bugnot, kakatapos ko lang mag NST eh
internme: ma’am if you want po not to be montiored hourly, you can tell me and ill tell the residents po.
patient: blahblahs, iritable na talga
interme: blahblahs, trying to explain the situation
patient: Ai wag ka na magsalita, sumasakit ang ulo ko!
internme: (as calmly as possible)……ma’am nopt because youre a pay patient you could talk to me like that,,,,
patient: turned hysterical…waaah waaah! blahblah…..YOURE JUST AN INTERN!!!! tawagin mo ang nurse! wah wah blahs..calls her husband, waah wahh ung intern blahblahblah
internme: ma’am sorry na po…im sincerely apologizing na po for what ive sadi (eksaherado ka, tsk)
patient: hinde wag ka na magsorry wag ka na magsalita…aaargggh….hysterical pa din….
internme: (kulang na lang lumuhod, natakot sa sanction) sorry na po sorry na sorry
patient waaaah! hindeeeee blahblahblah
haaii….lumabas na lang ang kawawang intern, oras oras na nga nagpapakahirap para imonitor ang pasyente para lang maksiguradong ligtas ang babay nya dahil mataas ang kanyang prsyon….ayun, na shut up pa at nasabihan ng youre just an intern…..kulang na lang lumuhod sa pasyente….
nasaan na ang 8 taon kong pinagaralan…..at ang MD>…….kung para sa mga pay patient isa ka lang hamak na intern. utusan. kaya wala ng respeto…
:’(
sa charity ward:
patient: miss miss, ate, pa tape naman nito ( IV line nya)
intern me: (naka white coat and all) —-( sadness….)
mahirap ang buhay ng PGI, alanganin kasi kami e, parang doktor na hindi, may m.d nga pro wala namang lisensya…….. malungkot pag nasisigwan ng pasyente, ng bantay, nasusungitan ng nurse….ng aide, ng residente
for most of them….WE are just interns….pero ok lang…..after one year….sana….tunay na maging doctor na ako….
and all these will pay off…..
………………im really sad right now……………………….
same old story pa din…. sya at ang mga bagay na hindi nya kaya gawin….
ang lungkot Christian….lagi na lang ba ganito :’(
