ramblings

how i wish i could regularly post here…..just like the old times…..what can i say…. months of internship have passed…im already done with 2 of the most toxic rotations ever…OB and Internal MEdicine….I surpassed it all…though not with flying colors…Ive a couple of not-so meritable encounters with my bosses….the nurses of east ave and nkti…some of them could really be the worst people you’ll ever meet in this world…

one shouted, screamed, yelled at me…infront of the other nurses and nursing aides and students…not minding the fact that i may just be an intern but im still a doctor….that i spent 9 years of my precious life striving to become one, and I dont deserve such treatment from her. ..we are not your slaves Ma’am….your highness from 5South east ward of East Ave medical Center, learn how to stoop down from your thrown, you do not own us interns…

at 5east ward one nurse badmouthed me in front of my colleague, claiming things such as I ignore referrals, i fail to fulfill their commands of inserting IV catheters, extracting blood from patients , and even slipping of this remark ” ewan ko ba sa maliit na yon” how professional can you get, rest assured that I would be facing you one of these days and kick your butt with all my might. This miniscule person do not exist just to be trampled upon by liars like you…. 

at NKTI-IM I met, first time ever, residents, who do not listen to explanations from interns, that interns monitor who chooses not to hear both sides of a story. YOU GUYS THINK WE JUST WANT TO BECOME SLACKERS, NOT MINDING IF INDEED THE INTERN WHO TOLD YOU SHE’S DYSPNEIC TRULY WAS, and not just giving out allibies to be freed from her duties!!!! grabe kang doktor ka i hate you to the fullest, you both of you, who thought i was jsut making up excuses when I said can I sit down while monitoring that patient. And since when does failing to insert can be grounds for demerit. I swear, you dra ___that no thomasian physician ever misjudged her colleague, the way you did, what happened to your compassion!! you may be competent but if you deal that way you will never succeed in this field where you need close ties with your co-doctors. and you, you interns monitor you, MAS NAUNA LANG KAYONG PINANGANAK!!!! but we will be licensed doctors too…..and I swear I would never be like you!!!!!!

haaaaiiiii…there’s just too much hatred for them within me….sana one day ill learn to forgive these people….sana I can just say, they tought me how to strive better and prove my detractors wrong……pero masakit…lalo na if deep within you know you did your best!! haiiiiii

enough of those angst filled stories………today is a holiday, and Im assigned at J.Dela Pena health center for 2months…weee…..rest na…kahit may make-up pa for the demerits and for the absences…..kaya here i am blogging…walang sense blog ko…wala lang just want to give an update about my life….haiii im sick…sana gumaling na ko tomorrow

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 Christian….

20 months na….we’ve been together for 20 months now….and…things are still the same i guess….

kung minsan I wish sana he could be more thougtful….kung minsan I feel he doesnt love me that much….pero he’s there…still there…though I cant help but envy those couples na alam kong strong na ang foundation…i guess we still have a long long way to run…I always hoped he would be the one….the one Ill spend the rest of my life with….but I learned not to expect that much…seeing my friends getting engaged, my best bud getting married, I pray harder that one day soon….he’ll ask for my hand and wont ever let it go…pero for the mean time, ill be happy and contented with what he can give….according to him…he’still a work in progress……haii….anyways….sana sana….

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99 % ang passing rate ng UST, 6/10 ang top from batch 2008….weee pressured talaga kami…….reminds me na kailangan ng mag-aral ng mabuti ngayong commmed…:-) and pray hard!!

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today is ate cindy’s 40th day of death….until now its still so hard to accept that she’s gone….. but we must move on…..may your soul rest in peace forever ate….we love you so much and we’ll miss you forever.

 ~~fin