sad day
i lost money again….:’( i know it was my fault…my carelessness…..but it was just for a few minutes…that I forgot it was in my bag, at the OR dressing room….Its nothing compared to how I try with all my might to save money….It hurts too much even it its just a material thing….whoever stole it didnt know that I skip morning meals and meriendas just to stretch my allowance for one week and pay for my sun bill….plus laundry….and trike fare everyday…. how i think a couple of times first what food to buy and if i can afford it…. I am not rich….. and I am an inch close to being called poor….:’( But now I have nothing left to do but accept the fact that some people just wouldnt care wherever the money they use to feed their families come from…..that to a hungry mouth whether you are rich or not wont matter, just as long as they see an opportunity to have money the easiest and fastest they can….
enough of that….
at least I have free wifi (umm connection?) ……haii… at least i have a laptop (even if it has no audio, and its hard drive is jsut 2gig–any usb can store much more space….haiii……at least I am an MD….that…. I think is the only thing that can compensate for all the difficulties in life I experience….that even if I have no money….I was able to graduate at the best medical school in the Philli…that I obtained my md within 4 years…that no matter how much money or material things can be stolen from me, my being a doctor of medicine wont ever be taken away from me…..
Life can really be unfair sometimes…I mean why cant this kleptos and snatchers and picpockets just get money from those who are well off and can afford to lose some (Im bad, I know) no—or why do they ever exist in this world 
I just pray that the right punishment would be served for them when the TIME comes……
haiiii….
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LOnely sentigurl…. I miss my friends…..whoever they are…. I miss having someone to call me because she has some juicy stuffs to share….I dunno…..in the course…..I think I lost everyone…..im just being pathetic again i know….its just that it gives me so much heartache whenever Im here alone in my apt and nobody even bothers to ring me….txt me….. what’s wrong with me….why cant i be loved as much by my friends…where are they now??
Now, even if i have a boyfriend…..im still incomplete…..because i dont have any confidantes anymore….that one whom I can call all the time and will answer in an instant….those people who will call me back because their days wont be complete without hearing me…and laughing with me…..
I know I have him……but nowadays I really am doubtful of him and that “friend” of his….I dont know…I hope im just being too suspicious…I hope there really is no basis to these doubts in my mind…..because I dont know what I can do if all these are true….
why cant I ever be loved as much…..
IM sad……….really sad….i hope the pain goes away soon…….
:’(
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