valentine’s day gloom
February 14, 2010im not single…
therefore, iwont be spending my valentines day alone….
but Im not really all that happy….
call me ungrateful……
but I just cant get over the fact that he once thought he loved me much less than before….
that he once…or twice…or God knows how many times he wanted to let me go each time we fight….
How I cannot really be assured that he loves me as much no matter what he says….
…I guess I couldnt feel it….
that I am as important in his life as he is to mine….
Maybe I would keep on waiting for the day he will say goodbye…..because I dont think he’s holding me as tight….
and his grip could loosen up…in a blink of an eye….if the tide gets too high…
I dont really know if I still believe him when He says he loves me…..
Things arent the way it were before…..
Happy valentine’s day to me…. :’(
why
February 5, 2010been reading my previous posts….and I cant help but cry….
he used to love me so much…woudnt allow a day to pass not telling me he loves me….
and when I get mad…he stumbles down….telling me how sorry he was….and how much I mean to him….
That was a year ago…..
NOw that we were together for two years and 2 months…he has changed….
CHanged a lot that I can no longer assure myself that he still loves me…
When I get mad…he’ll ignore me…
Whne I confront him, he’ll be even madder…
When I turn sweet, he remains civil…no sweet words…no i love yous anymore…..
No text msgs…no phone calls….no effort in meeting me….
When he meets me, I feel its just an obligation and not his own free will….
What’s wrong with us… is it still worth staying….
Or have I been alone all this time……
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