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like a ghost

May 19, 2010

i am like a dead person trying to live to fulfill my last missions on earth….

i have to pass my boards….

i have to study well for it

while nursing this smashed heart….

while trying to revive the love that has already died….

while hoping that one day I will be resurrected back to life…

while praying that he was just confused when he said that he want me out of his life

 

who am I kidding???

 

I know he doesnt love me anymore…..reading my previous posts….

now i realized it didnt happen overnight….

 

its been an ongoing process….

 

 

still…..i pray to God….

to give me one miracle

 

 

make that two Lord God….

 

 

help me pass my boards……

 

 

and make him love me back again…..

 

but if i could only have one….

 

 

please give me that license dear God….

 

its for my mom….

please….dear God

 

 

I can stand being alone forever……but I couldnt let my mom down…..

 

 

I want to be a full pledged Physician…..

 

even if I know….Ill be a dead…..licensed Physician…….

 

 

 

 

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