Devastated and all miserable me
November 28, 2011today I cried again….
because I chanced upon my ex’s fb and learned that now indeed, he is truly happy
and I cant help but become all bitter, again, for the nth time…pondering on what I did wrong to deserve all these pain….
up until now I still couldnt accept the fact that I lost him…. I lost him to someone else….. and why it all happened….
ang sakit sakit isipin now that I can see him moving on with his life….happy with her….
while me on the other side…..still miserable….
I thought I already found a new happiness….
but then ngayon Im just fooling myself into believing that what Im doing now can make me happy….
kasi alam ko this wouldnt do me any good but Im still doing it because of that false sense of happiness I can derive from it….
because nobody else is there…
because I already gave him so much of me….
and I just couldnt easily stop…..
bakit ganon???? when will I ever be happy?
yung hindi na ko sour graping over him being all out, happy with that girl…..
yung hindi puro pretentions…and living in a sin like the way I am….
before I know I have moved on already,hindi pa ba sapat ang sakit na naranasan ko from my ex to become a stronger person??? now I am dealing with something so painful again, in ayear’s time kailangan talaga twice ako masaktan ng ganito….
I have had enough….
I dont deserve this much pain…..
</3 I am so broken……
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