Why I fell for an idiot
January 10, 2012
Its all better now…now that Im seeing things clearly….
I was so devastated from ending a relationship that doesn’t even exist in the first place….
All these time we were looking at the picture, our picture, and we don’t see it the same way…
Its only now that I knew what really is going on inside his head….
There was never an US for him, that’s why its just all easy for him to say we should remain friends
I fooled myself into believing that we had something, that we just cant be what I hoped we’ll be because he has a kid…and a pseudowife……
Little did I know of the fact that in his life I was just merely an acquaintance….short of saying we just had a casual sex……and it’s all there is for him….. what’s different is that we work in the same place, and he had the chance to still mingle with, and flirt with that stupid, pathetic, gullible girl he devirginized.
This is indeed my stop….id truly stop torturing myself, and move on because there really was nothing to hold on to anyways…. Yes indeed. This is all but just a bad dream and now Im truly waking up…..
No more silly trips toward that surgery ward where he works, …..will just pass by whenever surgical referrals come…..and hope that he isn’t there….no he wont see me looking his way anymore…..
He is nothing but an idiotic asshole who doesn’t deserve even a split millisecond of my time……will face my day, my tomorrow with a bruised ego but a better self….. and when my birthday comes…. Ill be happy…. Unlike last year when somebody ruined it by making me feel worthless…..
Why I fell for a fucking idiot….no I don’t know and I will never understand…….but it wont be for long…..I will move on and far away from him…..pick up the pieces of my trashed dignity and forget that such person ever existed……
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Posted by Michael Kors at February 22, 2012, 3:53 pm
Weng weng, a lot of girls commit such mistake. But we make mistakes in order to learn. I understand how stupid you feel about yourself. I should know right? I was also in an imaginary relationship more than once! hehe Remember my howhow fever? Lol I used to really hate him because he only reminded me of my stupidity. I even deleted him from my facebook just so I could move on and learn to forgive myself. But now, I could only ask myself “Why on earth did I even fall for that jerk???”
Focus on yourself, weng weng. Focus on giving yourself that loving-kindness that it needs. And that feeling of guilt, give it time. Don’t suppress it. It will heal by itself. 
*hugs*
Posted by Irene at January 11, 2012, 4:26 am