thoughts of a would-be spinster
January 28, 2012im tired…. of hoping and wishing that one day someone would come along and wash all the pains of yesterday and today away……
i dont know….everytime I see wall posts in facebook about people getting married/engaged/pregnant/ changing status from single into in a relationship…. it gives me that certain pang in the heart….. why my life didnt turn out that way. Why I am not one of those selected few who were blessed with the one
why my love story ended that way…… why I have to meet the wrong person over and over again. why I have to love someone whose love for me didnt even last half a decade….. why I have to develop feelings I couldnt name for someone who is already committed but who doesnt know what committment means…….
I am, right now devastatingly certain that the one for me isnt really there……
I should just probably get used to being alone and learn how to live a life without thinking about that possibility that someday, someone would indeed come and love me for real. love me for eternity….love me and me alone.
No, all my hopes just died now….. and yes I sound oh so bitter, but then no one could really blame me eh…..?
Im tired….. really tired…..
and it hurts…
so bad
